Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes,
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Moments so dear.
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year?
I have always felt that September was the start of a new year for me. I don't know if it was because both of my parents are teachers and September is when we would all go back to school/work when I was growing up, but none the less September 1 has also seemed to be my start of something new - a new year. Fall represents change and a sense of newness to me.
This year seems to be shaping up to create the same feeling. Lately I haven't been on my bike as much as I would like. One of my coworkers/great friend, Jen, made the decision to take a new position in the American Cancer Society's Souix Falls, South Dakota, office. Because of this it meant one major thing - to try and fit as many Dubuque tourist stops in as possible before she drove her UHaul into the sunset. From rolling down the Alpine Slide to leaving our mark in New Diggings, to strolls down the streets of "remember that time when..." - whenever a friend prepares to leave your everyday life, you try to fit as many memories in as possible.
Jen and I on the chair lift after going down the Alpine Slide
Because of the hustle to check items of the Dubuque Bucket List, my bikes have seen less and less of time on the road lately. But taking the time to make memories with a friend was completely worth it. Sometimes it takes a friend leaving to remind you of those things that you would do different from the last year. The normal - eat better, workout more, read more - to the not as normal - work to forgive, be in the now, slow down, and love better. All of which I know I can do on and off my bike.
Striving to provide my body better nutrition only improves my riding along with getting on the bike more. Now reading and riding may not be the best idea, but reading stories of epic journeys on those raining days is a good one. These goals always seem to be the ones that are the most in your control, but always tend to be the hardest to do. The idea of creating new habits and making changes in your daily life sometimes seem like a long uphill climb, but the view at the top always makes it worth it - you just need to put in the work.
As for the work to forgive, this is something that always pops into my mind when I rolling across the cornfields - you think about those people who have come into your life and impacted it in a way that may have hurt you and you simply haven't forgiven them yet. Much like that squirrel who thought it would be fun to run in front of your bike, they may not have known that their actions had the effect that they would on you. From simple arguments to life altering actions - forgiveness never comes easy, but grunges make your soul dark. I haven't always done the best job of forgiving or admitting my own faults that may lead to earning forgiveness from others, but I have started to try more. To connecting with old friends and learning to cope with those who have hurt myself or those around me - forgiveness never comes quickly or easily, but is always needed to move forward.
Many times I find myself deep in a trance on my rides, thinking about where I need to turn next, how to best power up this next climb and whether or not that car is going to get out of my lane, I find myself forgetting to slow down and to be in the now. So many times we forget to take those deep breathes and look around us and to enjoy all that we have been given. The friendships and memories we have made, the changes we have taken, the disappointments we have experienced - all are a part of our lives and shape us, and we need to slow down and learn from each and every one of them.
Learning to love is a new one for me, but one that has peaked into my mind lately. Many times we generalize love with "falling in love" with a significant other. But have you ever noticed how many people you tell during the week that you love them? From family members and friends, who do we love and how do we love them? And most importantly - how do you show love? Is it being supportive to a friend moving away from you when you are tearing up inside? Or taking a moment out of your day to write a note of love to a favorite family member. Or simply by saying those four letters to those in your life - the smallest gestures mean the most. Because many times, it is only once we have lost that we learn how to love. Love, much like forgiveness, doesn't always come easy but when it does get there, holding onto it can be just as hard. It all comes down to learning how to love better.
So now you know my New Year's resolutions for this coming year - feel free to hold me to them! As the heat seems to going back down and the smell of fall creeps into the night, I can only hope that my coming year is as full of many, many amazing memories from behind my handlebars and everywhere else as this past year was - every 525,600 minuets of it.